[ he's noticed. hard not to, when toji often looks somewhere to the side, or over his head, or looks at him with what he thinks is a disturbed look. an intense stare that lasts a heartbeat, like a man daring to stare at an eclipse and hoping to be blinded by the sun, but finds only the reflected light of the moon.
[ this is too earnest a response for a nothing remark. the fushiguro brand of communication. ]
His name is Yuji. I told him how I feel about him, we're okay now.
[ this is good, truthfully. it's like a practice run for when he tells gojo, because he's sure the man would notice right away and let megumi stew with his overthinking.
yaey meatball n rice so yommy ]
He's the friend I told you about, the one who can cook. He taught me how to make these.
[ For some reason, this topic is kind of interesting to Toji. Maybe it’s cause he can vaguely remember being in love and being happy— maybe he wants Megumi to experience that too, even if the pain is a lot when that person is lost.
He settles his chin on his knuckles, his elbow on the table, and his posture seemed relaxed. ]
[ megumi isn't even interested in a romantic relationship with yuji, when he really thinks about it. no, not that he doesn't want one, it's— ]
Even if he wasn't seeing someone, it's not the right time for such things. Dating, getting into relationships, being involved that way... [ he shakes his head. ] We've gone through so much together. Hurt each other in ways we can't control.
I'm not in a good place to be that kind of person. I have to get better first, and then maybe... I don't know. I'm happy with us being friends.
[ Too bad that Yuji is with someone else; Toji is someone who is strictly monogamous. He wouldn’t want anyone to hone in on his person, so he wouldn’t hone in on someone else’s.
He scratches the edge of his brow with the clean end of his chopsticks. ]
No.
[ no.. ]
You don’t put a timeline on love. When it happens, it happens, sometimes when you least expect it or when you don’t want it to.
[ megumi looks at toji quizzically. he doesn't want to talk about the woman who was his wife, was megumi's mother, but the conversation somehow always circles back to her. he must miss her, this woman megumi has no idea about. so why...? ]
I'm not in a hurry. I don't think I want kids, anyway. But I don't have to worry about that right now. I have a lot to do when I get back.
[ get the clan in order. help his seniors re-establish the sorcerer society. scout for more teachers, more sorcerers; the past two years had culled their numbers greatly. and then, maybe. ]
[ megumi disp his hand into the shadows and, very gently, pokes toji on the back from the shadow under his shirt. ultimately, less 'look' and more 'feel', in the end. ]
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[ he's noticed. hard not to, when toji often looks somewhere to the side, or over his head, or looks at him with what he thinks is a disturbed look. an intense stare that lasts a heartbeat, like a man daring to stare at an eclipse and hoping to be blinded by the sun, but finds only the reflected light of the moon.
megumi picks up a meatball, eats it quietly. ]
Pick something else to talk about, then.
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Gah. What do they talk about? Megumi was nosy about his love life; guess he could be nosy about Megumi’s. ]
You should probably go find a girl to date.
[ here we go again. ]
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[ guess this answers where megumi got his tenacity from. it's not just gojo's influence, he inherited the genes for being a stubborn bastard. ]
I'm not interested in dating girls. As in I prefer men, not that I'm too busy to care.
[ wow this pickled ginger is so amazing wooaaooow ]
1/???
2/???
done
[ THAT IS IT?? ]
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[ this is too earnest a response for a nothing remark. the fushiguro brand of communication. ]
His name is Yuji. I told him how I feel about him, we're okay now.
[ this is good, truthfully. it's like a practice run for when he tells gojo, because he's sure the man would notice right away and let megumi stew with his overthinking.
yaey meatball n rice so yommy ]
He's the friend I told you about, the one who can cook. He taught me how to make these.
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He settles his chin on his knuckles, his elbow on the table, and his posture seemed relaxed. ]
You should take him on a date.
[ papa says gay rights 🏳️🌈 ]
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[ megumi isn't even interested in a romantic relationship with yuji, when he really thinks about it. no, not that he doesn't want one, it's— ]
Even if he wasn't seeing someone, it's not the right time for such things. Dating, getting into relationships, being involved that way... [ he shakes his head. ] We've gone through so much together. Hurt each other in ways we can't control.
I'm not in a good place to be that kind of person. I have to get better first, and then maybe... I don't know. I'm happy with us being friends.
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[ Too bad that Yuji is with someone else; Toji is someone who is strictly monogamous. He wouldn’t want anyone to hone in on his person, so he wouldn’t hone in on someone else’s.
He scratches the edge of his brow with the clean end of his chopsticks. ]
No.
[ no.. ]
You don’t put a timeline on love. When it happens, it happens, sometimes when you least expect it or when you don’t want it to.
[ as what was his case with Megumi’s mother. ]
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I'm not in a hurry. I don't think I want kids, anyway. But I don't have to worry about that right now. I have a lot to do when I get back.
[ get the clan in order. help his seniors re-establish the sorcerer society. scout for more teachers, more sorcerers; the past two years had culled their numbers greatly. and then, maybe. ]
Wanna see something cool?
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Toji leans back in his seat, not sure what to expect. ]
Alright.
Let’s see it.
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Cool, right? I learned that recently.
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You could really fuck around with people doing stuff like that. Who has been teaching you things?
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[ he's not confused about the 'fuck around with people' part; megumi's been using this technique partly for that reason, especially in a fight. ]
No one taught me. I figured it out on my own— Is this a Zen'in skill? Do you know——? I wasn't allowed in the family archives.